Ashley carried the weight of the world on her shoulders. While they watched a beauty queen win pageant after pageant, she began to lose herself. “I didn’t know how to be normal. I didn’t know how to have a normal relationship with food.” How do you let go of control without losing control? Who do you talk to when you fear judgment of a huge secret you’ve harbored? Her dilemma was never about image it was about control – the control of having a normal life. Stability. Balance. It was about security and at her lowest point she found just that.